I used to want to have only boys when I grew up and started having kids of my own. I could imagine all of my little boys and have thought a lot about them and the kind of fathers and men they will grow up to be. I was very opposed to having girls. I imagined myself having just one girl- if I was to have any at all- because a girl could be my little girlfriend in a house full of boys.

I have no crystal ball, and I cannot see all the little people that will exist in my life- but that is what I dream about. I dream about my future kids. I dream about my boys. And until recently, it was only little boys that I dreamt about. I thought their life and roles in life were clearer and easier to teach. I thought that boys had it easier. With all the confusion I have faced as a woman in my life, there was no way I wanted any of my little girls to experience the same internal struggles that I've drown in. I figured with this world that I live in, it would be better to not have any girls.

But something in me has changed. I see the need that we have for righteous women in this world. I see more beauty in my identity as a women. And I am EXCITED! I am excited for girls! I want to have them to teach them to walk in the ways of the Lord and to rejoice in their lovely place in the world. Girls and Women are fabulous, and as a future mother of girls, I look forward to teaching other women just how important we- as a gender- are in the Plan of Salvation.

Plus, where would I be without these beautiful women in my life?!?!